I have so many things to write, I feel like shooting myself, but, well, I don’t have a gun, so that’s out of the question. This thingy was oficially closed but then I guess I’m asphyxiating, don’t know what to do with these things I wanna shout while punching anything (a tree, a wall, whatever). Everything is going wrong, oh, so wrong, and I think I‘m going slowly insane, I’m gonna lose it, sure… but yesterday morning I started composing some lines in my head, (the last time that happened was like four years ago or so)

 

I said it hurt a little,
actually it hurts a lot.
Such pain I had forgotten,
numbing, paralyzing, cold.
'Tis the toll of absence.

Like a child alone at home,
when it begins to rain,
the darkness lurking outside
swallows heart and faith,
I fear I'll shed many a tear
yearning for our wanderings,
diluted in sleep, diluted in dreams.

And in the streets we walk'd together
(it seems we canvassed the whole city)
I like to fancy you're still here,
while the memories descending
destroy the hope they themselves brought.

Nobody would believe
such pain I do live in.
I told you it hurt a little,
actually it aches my blood.
Such pain could make me hate you,
I hope it does it soon.