This Room

 

La puerta del frente me llama pero Abril
aún me tiene en su polvo.
Su voz es más fría que sus palabras
y no me puedo ir.
Me dijo, "¿no te parece curioso el tratar
siempre de escapar?,
como él, me dijo que jamás volvería
y hoy duerme atrapado
en aquel jarrón,
en este cuarto, en esta casa,
en esta ciudad, en este mundo,
tal y como yo
tal y como yo estoy."

La puerta del frente me llama pero el miedo
me ha dejado inmóvil.
Su voz se vuelve más tibia, supongo
que sus recuerdos la envuelven.
Me dijo, "nunca estoy sola, ya él jamás
tratará de escapar otra vez,
le dije, que estamos atrapados en esta caja,
y ahora él tiene una propia,
en este cuarto, en esta casa,
en esta ciudad, en este mundo,
tal y como nosotros,
tal y como nosotros estamos."

En este cuarto, en esta casa,
donde la verdad bien puede ser una mentira.
Aunque tú creas e intentes nunca sabrás
cuál es la respuesta que dices buscar.
Y la verdad bien puede mentir
en esta ciudad, en este mundo en el que estoy,
tal y como tú estás, pero en el que dudo
que estemos tú y yo.

If you were to write to me tonight
doubt not that I would answer,
Yes, I would reply right away.
Sure, I say it cause I know
that you won't write tonight.

My friends have left me now,
and all my house is quiet.
The winds are breathing low,
and the stars are shining bright.
The moon has now been up
for more than I can care,
and if I could look at you
no doubt I would feel weak.

I remember what I've read,
and what I made you read. It's true,
tonight melancholy has trapped me.
And I took up the book
that once I talked about,
it's entwined hopelessly now
to everything you are.

So if you had written to me tonight,
if you would have written to me last night,
doubt now I would have answered,
but maybe something in my throat
would break and leave me speechless.
Thanks whatever gods may be
that you won't write tonight,
and I pray to all my dreams
that you don't write tomorrow.

Liquid Persuasion

 

A text I wrote in 2004 (with a shocking title: Immolation Project, I like the new title better) and just re-read last night. Strange, it still feels so honest and energetic, I do love this poem, lives so close to my heart. Even if I wrote it almost eight years ago is accurate in expressing what I feel.

 

I. Morning At School

Here's the song my fellows sing:
"it's very undesirable to be
eager for something deep,
something but just poetic".
Conceited thing comprising reality,
that part of life taking you away
from a painful unreal death.
I do not care what the world says
to set consciences free.
I do not care.
My mind won't take it.

 

II. That Afternoon Itself

Only empty words remain:
"something deep, but just poetic".
My recklessness could not be drank
like their cup of health.
In silence, the ground walks
its southern way, when north is lost.
Water dissolves the quietness
in a foreign whisper synthetized.

 

III. Saturday, Very Early Morning

My liquid red persuasion goes outside in visit,
my room's walls sell the tickets to a perfect ideal world.
It relaxes me while kissing my lips,
it captivates my foolish affection,
and overflows me with despair.
It does make me lose myself
inside this dark eagerness for time.
It brings a painful,
an almost idle passion beating fast.

I do bruise ideals, perfection,
and then become what I can’t deny,
time turning me into what I can't hide.
Both these boughs are bleeding
slashed by moon's burning dagger.
This new breath blurs the windows...
(Tomorrow, when they come in,
they better go find someone
who could clean the red out of the pane.)

 

IV. Monday Seen Through Dreams

Dust hangs around the fog
inside this house built
like a graveyard of life
between two naked trees.

Looks rain from everywhere,
watching summers and repeated beats.
Heaven promises.

Horizon, my fearless friend,
goes cheating rocks sharp and  cold,
and finds a sincere new reason
to justify my deep passion,
this sick admiration
for fighting weathervanes
shaking against the wind.