A text I wrote in 2004 (with a shocking title: Immolation Project, I like the new title better) and just re-read last night. Strange, it still feels so honest and energetic, I do love this poem, lives so close to my heart. Even if I wrote it almost eight years ago is accurate in expressing what I feel.
I. Morning At School
Here's the song my fellows sing:
"it's very undesirable to be
eager for something deep,
something but just poetic".
Conceited thing comprising reality,
that part of life taking you away
from a painful unreal death.
I do not care what the world says
to set consciences free.
I do not care.
My mind won't take it.
II. That Afternoon Itself
Only empty words remain:
"something deep, but just poetic".
My recklessness could not be drank
like their cup of health.
In silence, the ground walks
its southern way, when north is lost.
Water dissolves the quietness
in a foreign whisper synthetized.
III. Saturday, Very Early Morning
My liquid red persuasion goes outside in visit,
my room's walls sell the tickets to a perfect ideal world.
It relaxes me while kissing my lips,
it captivates my foolish affection,
and overflows me with despair.
It does make me lose myself
inside this dark eagerness for time.
It brings a painful,
an almost idle passion beating fast.
I do bruise ideals, perfection,
and then become what I can’t deny,
time turning me into what I can't hide.
Both these boughs are bleeding
slashed by moon's burning dagger.
This new breath blurs the windows...
(Tomorrow, when they come in,
they better go find someone
who could clean the red out of the pane.)
IV. Monday Seen Through Dreams
Dust hangs around the fog
inside this house built
like a graveyard of life
between two naked trees.
Looks rain from everywhere,
watching summers and repeated beats.
Heaven promises.
Horizon, my fearless friend,
goes cheating rocks sharp and cold,
and finds a sincere new reason
to justify my deep passion,
this sick admiration
for fighting weathervanes
shaking against the wind.
