Sometimes I feel really really weak (today, for example), so weak that I feel I could call your name once again, or at least, call you on the phone. Luckily for me, right now we are painfully away from each other... That makes me feel safe, in a way.... I begin to think there is nothing I wouldn't do just to be home with you once again (just once... I would die then, just thinking it'd end way or another would kill me fast...), dying by your side would be such a heavenly way to die...